Feelings.

Give me a reason to say that feeling this way is okay
Tell me something that can hopefully make my day
Ask me why I should just turn away and never look back
And I'll tell you that obviously I'm not on the right track
This feeling is nothing new; its familiar, not old
Giving up easily and leaving feelings untold
Its drowning me out I'm lost in it and I can't get back up
But I'm the only one pretending, asking myself when this feeling might stop
'Coz I can't hold it in and there's no way I can let it out
No matter how much I want you to know, I just can't tell you what it's all about
Its like a secret in a box that somehow I don't want to show
No matter how much I trust you, I just don't want you to know
I know I'm out of line here but so is everything else
Because as long as you're here, the feeling still dwells
My heart is up for anything, may it be heartbreak or love
Because you're love puts me in a state, its like a harmless drug
It messes up my emotions, making me smile when I'm not supposed to
It makes all my other dreams hazy making me see nothing but you
In a sea of people, no matter how many people there are
No matter how hard I try to deny it, I always want to know if you're near or far
Whether you're confining yourself in solitude or laughing with all your friends
I just watch and sit here as I try to pretend
Pretend that we were together and we wouldn't have it any other way
But I guess its not up to me to have the final say
It'll always be up to you no matter how unfair
But if it helps you go to sleep at night then fine, I wouldn't care
So help me out here as this feeling consumes my dreams
Making reality fall apart and making things as worse as it seems.