Depression, Denial, And Everything In Between

Lost 
Confused
In this unfading darkness.
I try to find the way out,
But I covered in doubts 
And at the end of the world,
You'll always be my only desire.
You keep the fire burning,
When you're the one to keep me living.

But when you're guilty all the time?
Dear, none of this is your fault.
And you shouldn't get involved.
No matter how much this could be hurting you in return
All I can care about us my fucking self.
But you're still on my mind,
And this time I'll blame myself

I need the wil to live,
I cant give up now,
And now I see how much it means to you-
I'll never give up.
You are my will to live.
And because of that, I promise...
I'll never fail you again.

If you could trust me,
Because I feel like I've broken our stronghold.
If you could love me more,
Because I can not get enough of it.
If you could kiss me,
Because I need you here.

You know, and I know...
Love is all we need.
But when I'm constantly failing you,
There's nothing for me to do.
But I promise I'll never give up.

And I'm sorry,
I've scared you,
Many times..
And you don't deserve this pain.
So throw it all on me,
I'll find a way to make it through.

Words cant describe feelings,
And experiencing them yourself,
It's dangerous.
But it's worth it,
No matter the pain...
I'm sorry!
I'll never hurt myself!
And I will not fucking die!
I can't control your life!
But I won't make it mine!
You can live normally,
Just know that everything's all right.
But if it's that fucking hard...!
You can take my life!