You

I look back
And see what I lost
And what I had to gain
Seeing now
Life is a game.
I gained love
But got a broken heart.
Been so down
I wanted to die.
Explored and rebelled
But in the end
I came out hurt,
And now?
I can’t stop thinking about
The one thing that hurt me so much.
I look forward
And see what I won’t have
See what I’ll gain
Knowing now
Life is just a game.
There’s college
And marriage
Hard times
And happy too
Missing the old me,
And missing you.
A ring
A promise
Mistakes to be made
Hearts to be broken
Only for what?
To be alone
Because I couldn’t let go
Of the one thing that hurt me so much.

August 13, 2009