For You

I've drowned myself for you,
attempted ending it for you,
stayed because of you.

You tell me to change,
to submit;
so I try again.
Everything done is nothing more than a loss,
a failure in your eyes.

I've begged,
have pleaded,
have even groveled;
these screams get louder
yet you still seem not to hear them.

You dismiss the truth as lies
saying it means nothing,
that I mean nothing.
Trouble is all I am,
all I'll ever be.

Please, speak to me.
Tell me where it all went wrong
to make you believe that I'm not real.
This silence is worse
than any harsh words.

I'm holding on to the edge
that you pushed me to.
I'm scared to let go,
but it's getting harder by the minute
to hang on.