I want

I want to stop crying,

But it hurts so bad,

I want to stop hurting,

But I can’t help being sad.

It hurts to breath in,

And it hurts to breath out,

I wish it would stop,

But my heart’s full of doubt.

Tears filling my eyes,

And they won’t stop falling down,

My hearts tearing to pieces,

Though I still can’t make a sound.

I’m screaming as loud as I can,

But no one seems to hear,

I want to run away,

I feel so full of fear.

My head feels like a thousand pounds,

My heart it seems much more,

And though I’d like to stay here,

I still feel like walking out the door.

I want to stop crying,

But my soul feels so dead,

I want to stop trying,

To get these words out of my head.

I feel like giving up,

On everything I’d hoped,

I don’t want to stay here,

As everything is roped.

It feels as if I’m in a forest,

Everything’s so dark and damp,

I walk to find my way out,

With nothing but a small lamp.

I can run for hours,

But no one sees me hear,

I can scream for days,

But no one knows my fear.

The rain always falls,

Down through the trees,

But the sun doesn’t shine,

Even as I fall to my knees.

Monsters hide in trees and the brush,

Bugs surround the leaves,

And as I lay in the dirt bed I’ve made,

I can only hope everyone believes.

I want to stop crying,

But the pain is too strong,

I want to give up,

Want you to be wrong.

I want to stop screaming,

But my hearts full of fear,

I want to stop trying,

As you are always near.

And soon it will be okay,

As the rain stops coming down,

The leaves will fall,

But they won’t make a sound.

The sun will shine through,

Where the leaves used to be,

And then a path will come,

Made especially for me.