Love s a pointless reality

So tell me where we are,
and tell me how to feel.
Because this pain inside
is so painfully, pathetically real.
I hate that I know you,
hate that I fell for you,
so why do I adore you?

~*~

I don’t know what that feeling is,
to touch and feel a soul.
That connection she feels,
Will never, could never, be so real.
I try to fall,
try to care,
But it's all pointless really...
Is something wrong with me?
Or is it them?
What is this feeling….?