Looking For Wonderland...

Why can't I get there?
Not even the drugs help me...
I wander through the garden trying to fall down the rabbit hole.
All I find are snails... Not even one caterpillar...

I walk through the house from room to room hoping that I will find the upside-down room...
No such luck...
The only things in there are the people telling me that I'm insane...
I only want to find Wonderland... Is that so mad?

I search the cupboards for the tea party...
I call out to the Mad Hatter and the March Hare...
Where could they be?
Maybe if I breathe when I sleep and I sleep when I breathe I can find myself there...

Perhaps I can't find wonderland because I am not small enough...
So I get the pills that seem to say "eat me"
They only make me dizzy...

I scream and scream until my voice is dead...
Then I find myself bleeding and crying...
Why can't I get there?
I want to be there so much...
It's the only thing that I want...

WHERE IS WONDERLAND?