Trapped

What is it I lost that made this apocalypse appear
For the skills that once existed freely
They are now deep inside somewhere unreachable
What happened to the initiative I once possessed?
The direction that once lead me to all the right places
Now I don't even know where to turn
How can I say I've been through so much pain?
When I never felt any of it
I'm afraid of what I am
Becoming has turned into become
The truth is I don't care
I want to care, I want to care
I can't find the feelings that once made me
Trapped in this lifeless mind
Don't save me
I'm sorry for everything