The one who should understand

I'm just a fuck up
I'm just a stain on your conscience
I'm just a disappointment

no matter how much i scream
no matter how much i cry
you just ignore me
you want to believe everything is okay
not wanting to get your hands dirty
you can't handle the situation
'cause you never take control
your life's based on pleasing everyone
the ignorance is making me sick
your empty words
i don't feel you at all
and sometimes i wonder
are you a human at all?
and how can you live like this?
it always takes a struggle to get anything out of you
i doubt you ever tell the truth

you're making me choke with all your questions
why do you even bother to ask
we both know you don't care

i just want to scream
right to your empty face
scream all my dirty secrets
make you feel something
oh i just want you to feel something
i want to scream so bad
so you would wake up
wake the fuck up now
wake the fuck up

but I'll never know what really goes on in your mind
I'm not the person you wanted me to be
I'm sorry for disappointing you
but I'm not sure if i really mean it
the only truthful things you say
they keep secretly hidden meaning behind them
and you think i can't read you
i wish i couldn't
'cause you're making me choke
you're making me choke on my own tears
i don't know why are you doing this to me
i must be really disgusting