I'm Difficult, Forever Changing My Mind.

I ask for it. I really do.

Hearts shoved forth, worn pinned on my sleeve. I should know better.

I should keep it under lock and throw away the key, pounding safe and forgotten, seashells in the surf.

Candy tongue and bubblegum lips sounded inviting. Things too sweet and tangy for me to comprehend. All I ended up with was hurtfully sticky hands and an ache.

Cotton candy kiss swept me away in a tornado of lights and carnival rides. I got off the rollercoaster, even though I didn't want to.

Cool grass between my toes makes my thoughts fresh and happy. The grass is brown now. I've neglected it far too long.

Freezing benches and stone, cold seeping through me on a January night. I thought it was amazing with the butterflies going crazy in my middle.

Zesty oregano kiss, warm and soft. It's making my knees weak and making me blush.

Your laugh, sigh, voice, I know every sound like it's a part of me.

I don't want to choke on the lump in my throat. I want to be free.

The plans I made for us are torn at my feet, a constant reminder of the way it should have been. I can't forget.

Maybe it takes time.

Time I have.

But I only want you.

I want your promises and whispers back, shadows dancing in my head.

I want your soft eyes and slight smile, images I try to banish.

But it's time to face the truth. Once you've lost, it takes an eternity to win again.