abusive love

You built me up,
then pushed me down,
you encouraged me,
now discouraging me,
and throw me around,
I know there's more,
behind you're hideous schemes,
baring me please,
i'm begging you dear,
please to hurt me again,
i love you too much,
to arm you with trust,
i know it's hard to breathe,
just take me now,
i'm begging you please,
with wishes and kisses,
i'm trusting you,
dont you see,
i love you,
more,
each everyday,
but i hate the way,
you promised,
the broke,
and pushed,
and shoved,
and tore,
and ripped at my soul,
please,
i'm crying,
and dying,
wishing for you more,
the love i dont give,
the trust i push in,
you're far too good,
no matter the abuse,
i love you too much,
for i really do love you.