Outcast

I am me
outcast
invisible among the shadows
I let them consume me
because I am afraid to let go

I may be insecure sometimes
people may call me a freak
on the outside I look the same
But, on the inside, my heart is not tame

You say you hate me
You mean no harm
All lies, and I have words of my own
I keep them locked in my heart,
all sense of alarm

The scars on my arms will prove
That I have found no solution
I am no brave soul
As you tell me to die in a hole

Oh, don't say those words to me
Because I ponder them for quite some time
They run through my mind
Should I do it?

By the end of the day, it is no different
I lie awake and feel unlifted
My friends went about what they were doing
not knowing they were throwing me away like extra garbage

Their words are cold
I have to admit
They didn't mean it
Yet, at the same time, they did

I am me
no matter what you call me
I stand by you
And don't know who I will be