Your effect on me.

You get my hopes up,
Then bring them down.
How hard is it to keep your word?
Apparently very hard.

That's the thing, your oblivious.
I have feelings that you won't know about.
And they're for you.

I get hurt easily.
Disappointed, Sad.
When I cry at night, its not for you.
It's for my own pity.

Because you haven't done anything.
Except to lead me on.
And crush my feelings.
Feelings I didn't want to have.

You don't understand the impact that you have on me.
When I see you on line, I smile.
Big and wide.
A grin like never before.

Oh wait. That smile I give to you.
It's a smile from deep inside.
Some place you won't ever get to.
Which makes me angry.
I want to ignore my feelings.

I want to rid of you.
But the truth is.
After everything you've done.
After everything I thought.
My heart keeps weakening.

Gets softer from the mention of your name.
Until I can't take it anymore.
I weaken, and won't be no more.
Soon enough.