I Have To Remind Myself

Yeah, it hurts like hell
When I see you with her
And you won’t ever recognize
Half the pain I feel

And I scream inside
Mentally slap myself
Every time you say
How much you love me

And when I’m close to you
Refraining from kissing you
And when you come late at night
And hold me so I can go to sleep

I HAVE TO REMIND MYSELF….

That you’re just my best friend, and I’m yours
The one I’ve grown up with
And as much as the truth hurts;
We won’t ever be more than this

And I won’t destroy this, Not now
I can’t be selfish, And say
That I, for all those years
Have seen you more than just a friend

I’ll hold my tears inside my heart
Smile, even though I’m hurt
Just move on, try to forget
That I can’t be more than your friend

I’ll be faithful, and stay with you
As we promised years ago
And I’ll be there, right beside you
Whenever you feel the need to cry

And today, I’ll compose myself
And be as cheerful as I can manage
And show everyone how I can be
The best girl, on her best friend’s wedding