This Person... Is It Me? (Dead Inside)

trying to cleanse my thoughts
but my mind just deceives me
the evil just takes me
I try to make things right
but nothing is easy
all my reasons for good
are against me

Its me against myself
fighting for some light
everything feels so heavy
the weight of living life
some clarity on what’s right
some piece of mind
the good in me I can’t find

I can’t find the difference beauty and death
love and happiness my heart simply shuns away
I can’t touch because I don’t feel
I can’t be hurt because nothing is real
my eyes easily corrupt things
my heart disguises true feelings

I can’t find the old me
Somewhere inside this empty body
I can’t bring back
The person I wanted to be
Have I lost myself again?
Or is the old me really dead

It’s a fight I surely lost
I lost myself to the dark
I was swept away by dirty promises and lies
Now I find myself desensitized

It’s me against myself
fighting for some light
everything feels so heavy
the weight of living life
some clarity on what’s right
some piece of mind
the good in me I can’t find

The only feeling I feel
Is dread
I know deep down
I found
Inside Im dead

I've lost myself surely...