Drained

This emptiness, my hopelessness.
The blade cuts through my arm.
Loss of forgiveness, and my bliss.
Your smile does me harm.

So stare at him at every whim,
But I'll lie wide awake.
Thinking of the steps I had to make.
And crying for the heart you had to break.

The tears I shed, the blood I bled.
All because I loved you sill.
My storming head, encroaching dread.
It seems you've had your fill.

We had a chance, I cast it off.
Foolish, unforgiven.
Life is not worth living.
My heart is beyond winning.

An evil night, a horrid fright.
I remove my limbs.
Our last talk was not a fight,
But I see you love him.

I still love you too much.
I am unreal.
I cannot feel.
Away from you I cannot steal.

The loss is all I have and ever will.
My heart is open wide for you to kill.
I've spilled my guts,
You said, "So what?"
There is nothing left for me to follow.
There is nothing left for me to follow.