Awkward Feelings

Why do I feel awkward when hes around?
Why do I feel like I need to be perfect in his presence?
Why do I feel like I should change myself for him when I swore I'll never change myself for a guy?
Why do I wish he had less friends and spend more time with me?
Why do I feel like his glance could kill me?
Why do his eyes cut me open, when I want to see him interested in me?

Questions,Questions,Questions

Its just a school girl crush is it not?
Was I wrong when I once thought I felt love?

Why do I regret everything I say to him?
Why do I fell so stupid when he sees me?
Why do I think I'd betray my friends for him?
Why does his smile stick in my head?
Why do I think of him before anything else when I know threes more important things?

How can I live on in this confusion?
Because his smile is like medicine.
Why don't I understand?
because he confuses me.

If hes just across the room why does it feel like hes a millimeter away?
This poem comes so smoothly, like a line rehearsed in my head.
And it is.
A line that is lingering in my head like a dream whenever hes near,
even the sound of his name brings this poem to a movie in my head.