All the Things I Am Not

I'm not upset...
despite the fact
it was all an act,
and everything I knew to be true,
was all just lies from you.

I'm not bitter...
even though all I see
is you with her, not me.
And now you're messing with her heart,
even considering why we're apart.

I'm not angry...
Even though the first boy
I loved made me into his toy,
and never once cared how I might feel
after finding out none of this was real.

I'm not angry...
even when told by the other guys
the truth behind all of your hurtful lies.
How all of this to you was a game.
I should have known before the time came.

I'm not crying...
When you walk by and ignore me,
pretending I'm invisible, a spirit you can't see.
I don't go home and think of how we were,
and I don't go insane when I see you with her.

Oh no.
I'm not any of these things.