You're my worst fear

Your eyes that condemn me
So beautiful yet painful
Your eyes that saves me
So deep that holds many unspoken secrets

I live now because you’re there
I do such fucked up things but I tell you
I won’t keep it a secret from you because I care
How can your eyes make me shake in fear?

So beautiful yet such a toxin
I love you so much
Every night I wonder about ‘What could have been’
I pray that my mistakes would turn you away from me

I love you
You’re my world now
Yet I hate you
Seeing you and your past makes me realize just how ugly I can be

I love you because you seem like a beautiful dream
You’re so kind to me… It scares me
At times I just want to scream
If I act this way will you ran off into the distance?

Your soul is beautifully clean
I don’t want to contaminate it
I love you so all I can do is be mean
I don’t want to lose you so I’ll push you away.

When its just us the time seems to fly into the sky
I feel so lonely that I just want to keep you in a cage like a bird
I’ll do everything you hate just to hear that goodbye
I love you so I’m trying to set you free

Please just go away.
I’ll watch with tear stained cheeks
While whispering a plea for you to stay.
Hurry up and become another person of another chapter in my life to close.

Please leave me with these tears
Don’t stay and comfort me
Have I told you yet how you became my worst fear?
Believe it or not I love you…..