Because of You
The world is full,
Of the bleak,
And it's covered,
It's smothered,
With pain,
And sometimes,
I'll lie awake,
And wonder,
Why I hold on,
I'm stressed,
I'm depressed,
I'm feeling empty,
And tired,
So why don't I die,
Well this is why,
You don't always,
Come round,
The exact moment,
I'm hurting and sad,
But then again,
You are,
Human like me,
And like me,
You'll never be perfect,
Although unlike me,
You make imperfection,
Something to strive for,
You make it glorious,
But since you happen,
To be even less perfect,
Then I am,
I can't blame you,
For being a little late,
Or not being there at all,
For the moment,
The tears come down,
But I wanna say,
You always make,
Me smile,
Me laugh,
Me happy,
You always stop me,
Unknowingly,
From suicide,
You don't give me,
A reason per say,
To carry on,
Through all the pain,
You don't even,
Tell me or give me,
A reason,
That I'll ever get through,
And I know,
That even you aren't sure,
That there is something,
On the other side,
To get through to,
But you show me,
A good time,
And a little,
Happiness,
And that's,
Worth living,
Even in this,
Upside down world,
Filled to the brim,
With pain enough for all,
And I know,
You deserve so much,
More then I give,
You deserve so much more,
Then this mess of words,
That don't even rhyme,
This terrible,
Super long,
Worthless and sappy,
Crappy lil poem,
I'm really sorry,
This all I can give,
But know,
Because of you,
I think I might,
Scratch that,
I know with all my heart,
I'll get through,
Everything and anything,
So long as you'll be around,
To annoy the hell outta me,
Just to try to start,
A harmless argument,
That'll happen if you're lucky,
But even if it doesn't,
You'll be entertained,
To cuddle with me,
For no reason I can find,
Besides the fact that it's super comfy,
And you smell amazing,
Like cologne and cigarettes,
You'll always be my favorite scent,
To put me in a submission hold,
When all I wanted was to dance,
But you'd never move with the beat,
Unless we were in a mosh,
So I'm always stuck,
Having to tap out,
Honestly you make me proud,
That I'm able to,
Thank you of all people,
And by the way,
Thanks for keeping me,
Away from the knife,
You make me proud,
To say the simple words,
I'm trying to communicate,
With all this nonsense,
But really there are only six words,
Out of the mess,
I'm trying to make known,
The only six words I know are the truth,
The six that are right here,
In front of me and easy to read,
Even in this world,
Where everything is all the way over there,
And written in the fine print,
The six I wrote this all to say,
And those six are,
I'll get through,
Because of you.
To Chris, Riley and Sparkels (I thought since I was being all nice and mushy I'd call you what "everyone" calls you) I know this seems melodramatic or something but I mean every word of it. You each have your own little 5 line parts and the rest is about all three of you. Jamo's is the bit about annoying the hell outta me, Riley's is right after that about cuddling and Chris's is after that, the part about how you'll NEVER EVER dance with me (grrrrr). I know getting some crappy poem seems small compared to the role you play in my life (especially Chris, since we live in the same house and all) and I completely agree which is why I also gave you an effing long dedication page =D.....yeah not funny. It definitely doesn't compare. But I guess I hope this plus the role I play in your lives amounts to half of what you guys do for me. Well I've written enough for an army and wasted enough of your time. Well I hope it's at least mediocre, it took me a few hours (I kept finishing, reading it over and adding more and more and more) So, well, I love ya guys and stuff. Hope you like it <3
Of the bleak,
And it's covered,
It's smothered,
With pain,
And sometimes,
I'll lie awake,
And wonder,
Why I hold on,
I'm stressed,
I'm depressed,
I'm feeling empty,
And tired,
So why don't I die,
Well this is why,
You don't always,
Come round,
The exact moment,
I'm hurting and sad,
But then again,
You are,
Human like me,
And like me,
You'll never be perfect,
Although unlike me,
You make imperfection,
Something to strive for,
You make it glorious,
But since you happen,
To be even less perfect,
Then I am,
I can't blame you,
For being a little late,
Or not being there at all,
For the moment,
The tears come down,
But I wanna say,
You always make,
Me smile,
Me laugh,
Me happy,
You always stop me,
Unknowingly,
From suicide,
You don't give me,
A reason per say,
To carry on,
Through all the pain,
You don't even,
Tell me or give me,
A reason,
That I'll ever get through,
And I know,
That even you aren't sure,
That there is something,
On the other side,
To get through to,
But you show me,
A good time,
And a little,
Happiness,
And that's,
Worth living,
Even in this,
Upside down world,
Filled to the brim,
With pain enough for all,
And I know,
You deserve so much,
More then I give,
You deserve so much more,
Then this mess of words,
That don't even rhyme,
This terrible,
Super long,
Worthless and sappy,
Crappy lil poem,
I'm really sorry,
This all I can give,
But know,
Because of you,
I think I might,
Scratch that,
I know with all my heart,
I'll get through,
Everything and anything,
So long as you'll be around,
To annoy the hell outta me,
Just to try to start,
A harmless argument,
That'll happen if you're lucky,
But even if it doesn't,
You'll be entertained,
To cuddle with me,
For no reason I can find,
Besides the fact that it's super comfy,
And you smell amazing,
Like cologne and cigarettes,
You'll always be my favorite scent,
To put me in a submission hold,
When all I wanted was to dance,
But you'd never move with the beat,
Unless we were in a mosh,
So I'm always stuck,
Having to tap out,
Honestly you make me proud,
That I'm able to,
Thank you of all people,
And by the way,
Thanks for keeping me,
Away from the knife,
You make me proud,
To say the simple words,
I'm trying to communicate,
With all this nonsense,
But really there are only six words,
Out of the mess,
I'm trying to make known,
The only six words I know are the truth,
The six that are right here,
In front of me and easy to read,
Even in this world,
Where everything is all the way over there,
And written in the fine print,
The six I wrote this all to say,
And those six are,
I'll get through,
Because of you.
To Chris, Riley and Sparkels (I thought since I was being all nice and mushy I'd call you what "everyone" calls you) I know this seems melodramatic or something but I mean every word of it. You each have your own little 5 line parts and the rest is about all three of you. Jamo's is the bit about annoying the hell outta me, Riley's is right after that about cuddling and Chris's is after that, the part about how you'll NEVER EVER dance with me (grrrrr). I know getting some crappy poem seems small compared to the role you play in my life (especially Chris, since we live in the same house and all) and I completely agree which is why I also gave you an effing long dedication page =D.....yeah not funny. It definitely doesn't compare. But I guess I hope this plus the role I play in your lives amounts to half of what you guys do for me. Well I've written enough for an army and wasted enough of your time. Well I hope it's at least mediocre, it took me a few hours (I kept finishing, reading it over and adding more and more and more) So, well, I love ya guys and stuff. Hope you like it <3