That feeling

it's just like a deep feeling of guilt
even if you didn't do anything wrong
and like inner emptiness
and sometimes you get that feeling in your throat like you're gunna cry
for no reason
and sometimes you do cry
it just...
...sucks
and you're tired all the time
but you have to run around for gym anyway
or do house or garden work
and that stuff just makes you think
and thinking is your enemy
and you just wanna punch the emptiness
and kick it, and hurt it like it hurts you
but you cant
it just...
grows
and eats away at you
til you're a shell that goes to bed
and a shell that gets up