Heartbreak

My mind.
Raged and stormed.
First with sorrow, and then with anger.
But it once swelled with all things about you.

Now I was trying but failing,
to deprogram you out of my head.
In one crash course.
But the memories of that Halloween,
and our walks home kept flooding in.

I couldn't reason.
I couldn't see.
Something kept leaking down from
the corners of my eyes and around my face.
Clouding my vision.
Oh, they're tears. How horrible.

I didn't know how to handle it.
My head was pounding,
swimming with question like:
How could you?
Why would you?
Why in General?

You told me you never felt the way I did.
Our relationship. A lie.
Nothing but a dare.

I had kept a room in my heart for you.
That room you ask?
Trashed, vandalized. Soon to be gone.
Every thought was being kicked and
shoved out the window.
The walls, cracked and split,
and the paint peeled.

I felt broken, lost, embarrassed.
I felt, Heartbreak.