Waiting for the sun.

I'm waiting for the sun.
It keeps me warm, keeps me whole
When it rains, I'm empty inside
I want to fill the emptiness of my heart.
My heart, echoing the words you used to speak to me when you held me safe and we thought nothing could keep us apart.
When we lay in the sun, letting the heat lick our laughing faces, carefree and thinking only about this moment
I took it all for granted.
When you left this world, I broke.to a million pieces
My smile, once so true, now sick and twisted.
My heart, once so pure, now mangled and broken
I wish you'd stayed with me, forever.
I feel like I've got to fight for every breath.
Fight for every heartbeat, movement, moment.
so I close my eyes and the world is dead to me, and I'm safe again with you in the sun.
And I open my eyes, and I see the cold, colorless reality, and on it rains.
So I hope I will never have to open my eyes again, as I put the blade to my wrist, so I'll always be with you in the sun, and I'll never have to see the rain again.
♠ ♠ ♠
:)