I Wish

I wish I couldn't feel the sorrow
Or the pain,
The worry that haunts my thoughts
Day and night.
Day dreams turn to nightmares,
Sunlight to shadows.
Clear blue skys fill with rain
As if heaven's crying with me,
As if I'm not alone.
Yet there I am,
Crying on my bed,
Longing to be anyway but here.
There I sit,
Staring at the reflection in the mirror,
Wishing to be who I once was.
Now I seem to have become
A different girl,
One filled with hate,
The only emotion I seem to understand,
The same tortured feeling
That leaves me lying here,
As good as dead,
Feeling empty
And misunderstood.