Valentines Day Rot

I sit here wondering where I went wrong
staring at the ceiling my thoughts come crashing down
all my friends are getting roses
and chocolates
and songs
when I am sitting here
spending Valentines alone.
I know I hate the occasion
but I hate feeling this drone
my heart beats
but it beats for no one
there’s no tears in my eyes
because there are no guys
who are into me
but why would they be
what am I to them
they don’t deserve me
so why am I unhappy?
I long for a letter
marked from him to me
maybe a hug or two
sealed with the kiss of destiny
but hey
I’m not that lucky
so here I sit
alone in my room
thinking of Valentines Day
morning will be coming soon
and I’ll still have no roses addressed to me
no chocolates
no songs
no one
but me