I Crawled On Home Without A Cloud Of Smoke

God only knows, I tried;
I tried so hard not to be pensive
And to keep you pleased,
But now my secrets are buried
In your family oriented back yard;
I rarely say anything,
I just try to spare your feelings;
And I think you understand
Why January seemed to go on for years,
But I'll be waiting by the muddy garden,
You used to tend,
'Cause I always had a feeling
You'd come around again;
I wasn't sure why you left,
Maybe it's because you were free
And I was enclosed,
But we can always go back to
Old gas station we
Used to always go,
Because it was the only place
Where we could be completely
Of ourselves without a cloud of smoke;
Remember when we tried to
Run away from this place?
But we couldn't agree
On exactly where to go:
I said we were gonna go
Wherever the bird flew,
But you disagreed
And said we should
Be followin' where
Our father's told us to go;
Then you screamed at me
For being afraid of what was
Behind us,
'Cause I used to call it home
So, I tripped on purpose
And pretended my ankle
Had given out,
When I really just couldn't take
You yelling at me;
You begged me to continue,
But the damage was done,
So I crawled back on home,
While you went somewhere west;
Oh, honey dear,
Won't you write me soon?
You're cursive is so pretty,
And I need your support,
'Cause I've been listenin' to the
Kinda music that makes me
Contemplate runnin' after
Your attractive little face,
But you'll never love me again,
You told me a thousand times,
No bribe will ever trick you again