Staying and Obeying

Too much to bear ,
I am only dead,
My heart has bled,
I feel the burn,
The torment too,
I could never had guessed it would be from you,
I can't escape,
I can't say no,
I have to obey,
I have to stay ,
I'm still here.

Held up were i don't want to be,
I won't even speak until you free me,
My heart is bleeding,
This cage is rusted,
I'm still here.

I can't stand up
I have to cry
That's the only way
you could get the sign
What should I do,
Why should I stay,
Your my mom,
Your my dad,
I cant say or do anything,
Because I have to obey.

Happy memories they used to be,
But now there painful to look back and see,
That it's not that way anymore and that's not me,
I'm still here.

I love you, I do,
But it's not what I want,
It's what you do,
I'm grateful, I'm thankful,
I care, I DO!
But i can't be just like you,
you were the one who made the mistakes,
NOT ME,
I'm not to blame,
Don't put all your problems on me
It's not my fault I'm not to blame,
But I love you both,
So I can't escape
I have to obey.

I can't be different,
Separated from the world,
I'm just not that type of girl,
I can't seem to find the light,
That's how I know,
How I know It's not right,
I know you see in my eyes what I feel,
But do you not want to believe that it's all real?
I'm Still Here

I've seen it before,
When they stand up and speak,
I's not easy to remember,
My best friend she was,
Tall and slim,
Her parents had her in this religion,
She didn't want it,
She left them again,
So her parents left her to die and sin,
They just didn't care about her anymore,
When she came home,
She couldn't find an open door,
They said she was useless,
A pain and a stain,
That they could never get off their name,

So now you see,
Why I stay,
Why I'm silent as well,
I can't speak what I think,
Cause I'll be sent straight to hell,
So of all I've seen heard and not said,
Of all the times my heart has silently bled,
I have had to obey,
I just have to stay.