Desperate Decisions

i wonder how it must have felt
for you to leave and why you left
you doubted me and hated me
i cried for you but u know the rest
you said you care and crushed me down
what kind of life do i have left?

a desperate gloom has overtaken me
a razor blade has touched my wrist.
it felt so hard it felt so dark
it felt as if i might be missed

it started going from left to right
it made me tremble while my heart was ripped
my hand was sore, my eyes were shut
wishing these slits would never mend
i shed a tear then dropped that blade
your voice has echoed, your music didn't fade

why are you crying? what has gone wrong?
I'm standing here now, try not to be sad
i want to die right here beside you.
gazing at your eyes, kills me deep inside
i am sorry that you're my only reason to live
but next time,
I'm not letting go of that blade.