Stop Trying. It Won't Work.

I don't know what I feel
If it is really real
Or if my imagination just took the wheel

I look at you and I think I feel
But do I trust my eyes?
I hear you and I feel my smile
But do I trust my ears?
I'm with you and I feel on fire
But do I trust my body?
You smile at me and I feel my heart beat a little faster
But do I trust my heart?

We say goodbye and I feel a little sad
But is the emotion real?
Am I really sad?
Does my heart really beat a little faster?
Am I really smiling?
Is my body really on fire?
Do I really love your smile?
Or am I imagining it all.
Dreaming you into someone you could never be.

Do you fake your smile?
Your laughter?
The way you look at me?
Is it all an illusion? Or is it something I can believe? Do I even want too?

I don't want to love you.
I don't want to care.
I don't even want to consider it.
Think about it.
Feel it.
Breath it.

Can you just go away?
That's what all the others do.
Please join them.
I don't feel anything so just go.
Go before you break something.
Before I see who you really are.
Before you see me.

And above all;
Please stop trying to make me fall for you.
It's never going to work.