Claim me

I watch this frost creep up on the ground,
I look for what it hides beneath...
Listening for something else out there,
wishing to here another sound.

The crickets harmonies with my mind,
singing sweet melodies throughout the night,
they embraced the earlier twilight,
letting me sink far beyond my dreams.

I shed my clothes,
onto the pail sand...
And let the goosebumps rise up my skin,
I let the mist cover what is there,
let it kiss the small scars i wish to bare.

I wonder forward,
waiting for the bite,
feeling the frigid glassy water on my feet...
i walk until i feel numb,
until my body will no longer move.

The water covers me.
Sinks around me,
in this darkness i cannot see,
i let this fog hide me.
drown me...

I drift beneath the surface,
the icy water makes me gasp.
i wait for the pain,
from inside...
inside...

I feel useless,
breathing out my last breath,
cheating on me, on life.

I breath in.
the slimy water fills my mouth.
the salt chokes me.
the water hurts me.
My lungs freeze a beat,
my panic sets in.

I hold on to my desire,
i will not live tonight,
i will not let life embrace me.
i will not let it win.

ill take deaths hand and let her guide me,
let her take me.
My mind no longer works for me,
it is of its own.
the need to breath deserts me,
i know for now i am alone.

I am gone,
with one,
hiding beneath the mist,
hiding within the fog,
watching for another soul,
waiting for death to claim me.