No longer

Sinking and free falling
into this black pit
Screaming and burning
I just want to end it
My blood falls freely
From these cold veins
Dripping in great amounts
Just like the rain
My heart may beat
But it is feeble and weak
My lips may move
But I still cannot speak
Just sew them shut
And toss me away
I don't think I can live
Another single day
You tell me to look up
And see the light
But how can I see it
When everything is night?
Just take my heart
I don't want it anymore
I won the battle
But I am losing the war
Why fight when I know
I'm not going to win
Hand me something sharp
To slice through my skin
I can feel my life slip by
Hour by hour
This hate inside me
Starts to gain power
It fills up my soul
But there is never a release
Is it so bad?
That all I want is peace
God are you listening?
Can you hear me?
Do you like what you see?
Do you enjoy seeing
Your creation coming undone?
I've tried to be good
But I guess you don't care
You never listen
Or even answer a prayer
God, I don't even know if you are real
So now Satan and I
Have made a deal
I have a sudden urge
To do something bad
I think that this
Would make my friends sad
I don't want you to watch me
Do this awful deed
You don't need to see
All of this blood that I bleed
So stop, look away
And just turn your head
One flash of a knife
And now I am dead
Slam that coffin lid down shut
Over my face
Don't bother looking
At such a disgrace
Throw me in a hole
And throw in some dirt
I'm no longer in pain
I am no longer hurt