life or something like it

you're clinging to the headboards
pillows
something to keep this from happening.
something to do.
something has to give.
you'll wake up and it's a dream.
you wish and wish.

it's not a dream.
it's never a fucking dream.

you're sewing yourself to the ground
skin and bones meet carpet and concrete
what a beautiful symbol of unity.
you're terrified of staying still
terrified of floating off more.
you shut your eyes and pray it'll go
as if sheer force of denial will save you.

and you hide hide hide
behind everything
so no one knows you.