Because of you

After I speak to you I feel despair rush through me.
I look into the mirror and darkness is all around me.
I watch as the tear rolls down my cheek.
I fear that it proves that I am simply weak.
I look and see my heart on the ground.
It sits there and doesn’t make a sound.
It has been broken so many times.
And I think it will never be repaired sometimes.
I fix it with glue but it is starting to show.
I said I would quit fixing it but that was a long time ago.
I see my frail heart shatter before me.
And my heart is gone as you can see.
I glance into the looming mirror just once more.
And I can’t see my own reflection anymore
My heart has been crushed and I feel nothing.
I felt like I couldn’t do anything.
I felt as if I was completely helpless.
The thought of redemption was hopeless.
I was becoming lost in the shadows of despair.
And I feel this news is too hard for you to bear.
I hate you for what you have done.
Are you even happy that you have won?
I feel as if my soul is not even there.
And I feel my heart and soul will never repair.
I feel like I should pick up that gun.
And do something that can never be undone.
So as I pull that trigger,
I feel the emptiness get bigger.
I have just shot myself and I am now dead,
A single tear is the only thing you shed.
I watch from above as you clench that note.
I cry as I hear you read what you have wrote.
You admitted that you were foolish.
And you say our break-up was just rubbish.
That night you went on a boat.
And I watched you slit your throat.
We spend our afterlives in bliss
And we end our lives in heaven with just one kiss.