Broken In The Parish

Under the awakening
Clouds full of rain
I look up and see the stans
Im parishing these scars
Im wilting away
No one, is trying to hold me back
Here i am
Waiting for the attack
Breathe into me
Holding my last bit of sanity
Crushing down on me
Its not enough...
I bite down on the bitterness
I swallow all the hate
I erase all the fury
I devor all the pain
Sometimes it just kills me
Perfect isnt real
I run the the forest of my memories
I fall into sleep
I fall into me
I dream that nobody cares and nobody wants to hear it
Its more than enough now
I start to rush, the blade into my skin
As i walk along the shoreline
The wind gains its speed
I feel the drops puond down on me
I fall to my knees
The ocean waves current into my blood
And i see him looking down
But i look up and say
"How did this happen, im broken...happy?"