Believe Me When I Say..

It's hard to believe..
That what keeps me alive is also killing me,
That which holds me up high from the ground makes me the below everyone else,
The thing that makes me me feel turns me numb,
This breath that I breathe is not only of air but of misery,
Those around me suffer yet I begin to smile in my own agony.

So believe me..
For I cannot believe myself.