I'm Not Here

You can't see me,
But I'm still here,
I'm so confused,
Can someone make this clear?

I reach out to touch you,
But you feel nothing,
My hand goes straight through you,
As if I were nothing.

All of a sudden I understand,
I'm no longer amongst the living,
I'm not with my friends anymore,
I'm now a resident of heaven.

Today was my funeral,
I saw you attend,
You tried to look happy,
But it was all pretend.

I miss you so much,
But it's time for me to go,
I hope you understand,
I never wanted to go.