Scared

I’m scared of the shadows on the wall
I can hear them speaking to me
How can this be happening?
What am I becoming?

The screaming doesn't’t stop
The ticking of the clock
In my mind
In my mind

I lost track of the days
Between sunrises and sunsets
Phones calls and pounding on the door
Why do they want me anymore?

I am worthless
Nothing
Broken
Scum

Better of without me
My mind supplies helpfully
Traitor
Truth speaker

I’m scared of the dark
Always have been
Always will be
Coward

You know this
Of course you do
I tell you everything
You know that, don’t you?

That’s why you’re breaking down my door
In the middle of the night
Shouting out my name
Scared

Why on earth are you scared for me?
I’m nothing, can’t you see?
Don’t look at me like you’d miss me at all
If I did it, after all

Don’t hold me close like I’m a sinking ship
And look scared to death that I’m gonna leave
Don’t pretend that I’m worth any trouble to you
Death is the best thing I could do

But alas, I’m scared
Scared of death
Scared of the beast and its poison breath
Scared of the end of all I know

I’m scared of the shadows on my wall
My friends don’t know but I can name them all
I talk to them when I’m all alone
They’re scared of me too.