Loneliness

It feels like I'm slowly sinking lower,
to the darkest depths of the ground,
I'm alone,
because you left.

Sometimes I wish to die,
it can be tempting,
but would I be missed?
Could I cause them that much misery?

Too selfish am I,
I shall not fade,
I hope to stay sane,
what should I hope for?

If only you could see,
what a mess I am,
would you run to me?
Or would you not care?

It doesn't matter anymore,
I cannot prevail,
for you crushed me,
so I could never stand up.

It ripped me apart,
my heart is cold enough,
when you leave,
Why cause me more pain?

I whisper in my nightmares,
"Please come back"
yet all I hear is the rain,
against this empty house.

I know this for sure,
that I cannot take this,
knowing truly,
this loneliness is difficult to endure.