Enemy

So tired
It's like the world is moving as fast as a hummingbird.
But where am I?
I can't find my place here.
It's as if I don't belong.

'Be a leader, not a follower' is what I'm told
How can I lead when no one will follow?
I try to be myself
I try to ignore the 'haters'
But it's so much easier said than done.

I want to be myself
I don't want to care about what people think
And I try to push it all aside
But it's like I can't
My mind is my own worst enemy.

I think things that shouldn't be thought of.
I question it all
I look into things too much.
I am the cause of my sadness
I am my own worst enemy