in truthfull denial

i find myself hurting at this time of the day.
yesterday the way that old women looked at me
like i was going to knife her
as if i would take a life... her
i find myself in confusion like difusion, the way it spreads through me
im not that stupid, what did you think i would see.
im disgusted; im part of you
do you care
i dont know anyone as selfish as you
its true

i want to go back to how it used to be
but youve ruined the chance of me ever being happy
i used to have reasons for living but now i only have one
theres only one person who loves me- mum
im part of her too,and i thought "i want to be an exact replica of you"
i want to make you proud of me and maybe one day you will be

its weird when everyones acting normally
im the only one who knows the truth,
im the only one who can truelly see.