Human

I stare blankly ahead, fear lurching
my heart in such an irregular pattern.
They crash around me, sweet smiles
turned to bitter grimaces. Kind eyes
flashing with hate. How did I cause this
when I have done nothing but live? But
breathe? But simply be?

There is one explanation, I realise this
as the turmoil roils it’s maelstrom eye
in my gut. This explanation sinks, so deep
down inside; it lies heavy, occasionally
rising up only to slam down once more
upon my chest. Silence; bequeath me
your patience, for I have none of my own.
Mirror; lend me your insight, for I fear
that this stems from within. Hope, shed
some light lest I be rent from this skin.

Honour, valour, strength and sage;
I beseech you, send me not to mine grave.
Alas, there is little for which I ought to
live, as these glaring eyes accuse me of
horrors beyond my own imagination.
Scream, oh, my dear beloved, scream,
abuse… break me, for I am fragile, and
fragility is a weakness in one so bold.

The icy blade of their thoughts cuts
loose from me my tongue, and they
let it drop to the splitting ground.
Peace of mind they shatter- the
delicate glass that it is; so intricate
in design. They take me in their
stranglehold, breathe into me their
pains. No more tears, sweet violence;
for I am the breaking back, and
would be whipped for complaining
of it.

My own doing, one would judge.
How dare I live beyond my crumbling
defences? How dare I think? How dare
I feel? How dare I act upon my will?
Foolish… How foolish I am, that I
thought to escape the wrath of man.