Escape into the Venom of a Syringe.

My addiction leads to loss,
But what do I do when every turn leads me to you?
What do I do when I fall back every to steps I take forward?
Lay down 'cause I might not wake up this morning,
You can try to help me even if I want help but I won't want it tomorrow,
I'm so undecided and confused about everything including you,
Which way do I turn when all I have is you?
If I fall back can I breathe till morning without regret, and will I ever forget?
You leave me alone and how can I be alive if I'm dead inside?
No one understands a junkie's mind,
I trade my money for another addiction,
When words are meaningless and love is to forget,
What do I do to bend and break away from the dark?
I've been trying but I keep finding more ways to keep buying,
Another dose another dollar,
Will I ever make it and recover?
I keep finding way and excuses to cover my tracks,
But when will the light shine through or the darkness grow?
When will this blanket of unbreathable dirt and soil cover me?