The life I lead

the life I lead is a dark one
Its cruel to me
it hurts me
it breaks me down till I can no longer breathe
it knows I am weak
I can't take the sadness
not over and over again
it shows me happiness
shows light
only to rip it away from me and torcher me with it
I'm cracking under the pressure
I'm shutting down
I can no longer live this life
I can't take the pain