Marked Exits

Constant reminders of the life I used to live,
I can't pretend I never knew you.
I wish I could act as if you're just another
person I see day to day,
but you're definitely not
just another face roaming the halls.

Your eyes watched me drown.
Your mouth fed me lies.
You led me to believe
everything you said.

I feel your presence everywhere I go,
everyone seems to be talking about you.
I'm alive, not for long,
If I hear another word I'll scream.
Each day was just another day that I'd
wish that I would drop dead,
And erase me from your reach for good.
In my mind, to be without you was as good as it gets.

Smashed down,
brought down, stepped on;
You crushed me.
I can't stop this until your eyes are glazed.

Your eyes watched me drown.
Your mouth fed me lies.
You led me to believe
everything you said.

We both got tied up in these lies,
now my reality.
I've always wanted to say this to your face;
You were the lie that saved my life.
You brought me into the habit of self harming,
smothering any self confidence I've earned.
You made me feel worthless, maybe it's because
you have everything at your finger tips,
yet all you can do is complain.
Who knows?
All I know is that I can finally say that I'm done.
Done with you,
Done with pretending to know you.

I will do whatever it takes to erase you.
Someone else can learn to cope
with your self pride and ignorance now.
Take away those few things, and I swear you'd be perfect,
You'd be almost perfect.