Burns

This constant burn,
it flows down my throat.
Confusion and reality sink in.
The sensation of forgetting life only lasts for so long.
Sadness then sinks in,
and this time it kills me.
I had a girl all to myself.
When she left, I could tell it was well practiced.
And now I have to live this life pretending I never fell for her,
Like I never gave her my heart, and meant it.
I just can't convince myself.

They say happiness is everywhere,
well where the fuck is it then?
Please tell me, I have the urge to find it again.
I crave the burn,
the smoke and the constant dose of you.
I admit, I've wasted my days,
watching them from a distance.
The worst part of it is, that I'm not sick of it yet.
If I could hide from this fate, the cheerful faces around me,
believe me I would.

This constant burn,
the certain scent that makes my nostrils flair; it controls me.
But will it end me?
I know it rules over me,
yet still I let the warning pass on by.

Will you let me fade, die out like the rest?
Show me that you care, give me a reason to come back,
back to something I'll look forward to.
I'm afraid my time is ticking too fast, not much more I can take.

Don't let me say that I'm never coming back,
because I never lie.
Hold me to my promise this time.