Memoirs From a Lollipop

Heart-shaped lollipop swirls in my hand
Taste that once molten sugar on my tongue
Too sweet for most othe tongues than mine
A symbol of sweet love turned sour, bland

Short memories do not lapse inside my head
Those glances of recent past mistakes twist
Combining into my worst enemy, the darkness
She overtakes without a considerate thought

So capricious, this foe of my doings
A game of capture the flag, hide and seek
A lonely walk along a lost, decepit beach
Sounds of dying kittens' helpless mewings

The smell of failure, failure to move on
To light the candle and brighten the room
To pass by the window's offered frivoloties
To better another's life by showing them the dawn

Hidden amongst the shrubbery as I walk
She strikes with deadly pecision, knife at my throat
I hope for the worst, but then She drops away, black
Leaving me confused and numb with pain as I stalk

She greets me with put-downs and lashings
And Her goodbyes consist of blood bonds and black eyes
Everything shining in my life now dulled by the presence
And my will to go on slowly, painfully leaks through rehashings

Water wells from the ends of my eyes
And the love that once enveloped now coldly unwraps
Warmth once so comforting now seems so foreign
As I push away everyone that tries

This fault of mine, She is so cruel!
Never would She give me my wishful just death
No, torturous must the lifestyle I lead become
As the chains I bare force my bow to her rule

I hold on, my head reeling from these plights
Yet I feel those fragile fingers of light slipping
The once tight mesh of our hands now threadbare
False move of mine led to these evil mights

Could the God upon the light's side save?
Abandoned, I seem, as Her pit becomes bottomless
Climbing, Falling into the inevitable pool of hate
My limp hair floats as I go under one last wave