Pain.

Slowly stabbing through my skin,
the blade goes deeper and deeper within.
blood pours out, rolling down,
Laughing softly, i've been found.
Someone Lurking starts to scream,
watching in horror as i continue my scene.
soon a deep scar or two,
but thats not all my soul can do.
i lift my shorts and cut thoroughly,
making blood pour out over me.
nothing stoping me from enduring this,
nothing able to keep me in bliss.
Pain swells up inside my throat,
and i sing softly, tears going to choke.
i stop there, silenced out,
by a small voice in my heart tell me about,
someone very close to me whom i love very much,
and how he would think if i was to leave as such.
confusion sets in and steals away my blade,
dropping to my knees, i dont know what to say.
i hold back all the screams,
all the howls of my pain.
and i search for his voice within me,
to keep me mostly sane.
i have a problem yes i know,
it started with all this pain.