Silence

I'm inside out and upside down
I'm in vertigo, I'm my own affliction
I'm my own damned will
I'm shouting and crying out, what this mess will bring
When I wake up in the night, I wish for silence
Numbing at my mind, but silence is too quiet
Silence is like sleep.
And sleep is like death.
I'm not afraid of dying, to see the empty void
I'll go by myself, alone, I'm my own disaster
I can't even love myself
What aspect is there of me to love?
When all I bring is misery
Bleak dark silence and the gaps in between
What is there in life that I can bring?
Except sitting in this corner, silence biting at my mind
But I can't take the silence, not any more
But how can you help me when distracted by falling
My vertigo playing mind tricks on you
Falling is like dying.
And dying is like living.
I'm crawling inside myself, building up a barricade
This wreckage soon to come,
The lives I fail not to take
I see the world in black and grey, a filter covering my face
I'm harbouring up these broken souls
Giving them all my vital organs, theres nothing left of me
Just a bleak darkness, the void in between
I'm being strung upside down
But nothing pours, I've been emptied
There's just nothing left, but this so called soul
I'm crawling, retreating inside myself
I'm alone in my mind, silence festering my body
I'm shouting and crying out
Because I can't take this silence
Not any more