The One Thing I Don't Regret

Tick tock the clock is marching away the time that's all but left to say how much I wish I could call you now
We left this space between us crawl, open up and finally built a wall we never saw through
I wish I could take it all back, go over and start a new and hold on to everything just like the first few hours
Just like the night you made me fall for you, I'd hope we could make it through
Oh how wrong I was

But the pain still eats me away
We didn't have much to say
The final words of goodbye hurt more than I could say
While you can still smile on, I'll be right next to you smiling along while the hurt inside still kills me inside
While I can say I'm not happy, I'm happier knowing you didn't end up this way

Even though I swore myself to secrecy, it's killing me not to cry infront of any eyes to see
I could spend the whole day just rotting away from all the happy days you spent with me
I can't say how much I cry every time I remember that dance
That final song we talked to, that argument over if we should dance or not
The final hour of the night that we spent learning about eachother's dreams and favorite bands and different tastes
And suddently remembering you walking away

But the pain still eats me away
We didn't have too much to say
The final words of goodbye hurt more than I could say
While you can still smile on, I'll be right next you smiling along while the small girl sindie crys tonight
While I can say I'm quite depressed over this matter, I'm happier knowing you didn't end up this way

And even now when I look at your face, I see us together at the same time and place
I can see the bright future and the bright blue in your eyes
Then you look at mine and I see the fire that burned it all inside
I see the walls crashing down, taking me down with it and I have to say I'd rather be there than have to be with you again
And go through the same pain over again even though I'd like to try

So just know that the pain still eats me away
And even though we didn't have much to say
It meant the world to have for the moments that I did
and I'm sorry I couldn't find the breath to say
While I'm lying here, clawing away at the floor
I'm much happier knowing that you can still be happy without me
But the pain just ate through me until I went away
The words just came up and died without a say
The final words of goodbye hurt me more than I can say
WHile you can still smile on, I'll be right next o you smiling along while what's left of me dies away
With my final breath, I can say I'm much happier knowing you're not this way