Heartbroken?

My heart is broken yet again by the guy that I liked
This has happened six times in my life
When will this ever end?
This pain that I feel is all too real.
Love is hopelessness
Love is magical
NOT
Love sometimes is the worst thing possible!!
I hate love!!

Love shouldn't exist.
Feelings shouldn't be around
They shouldn't EXIST
How many times do I want to scream but I don't
My feelings for him have vanished with the time
My heart has mended but i still hurt when i talk to him
I hate that i lost him to this superficial girl
A girl that won't love him like I would

Now we're best of friends
Best of friends but I still hurt
I hide it from him
Hide it from him because he would hurt too
Maybe that's what I want
For him to hurt like he hurt me
But I can't do that
I still unwillingly love him......